night n_n

i want to go to sleep but my body says no

tossing up between making a pom pom or r.i.p grass hair accessory thingy

art is the only thing that is making me happy but it also makes me angry

I am going to be mute and deaf to everything, because anything I do or say, just makes matters worse.

i shouldn’t still be awake but i have to

school tomorrow :(

watching the season finale of generation 2

i am wondering where freddie’s body is.

there is this slight hope telling me that he is just very injured and nearing the verge of death. in the last episode, if you listen closely, you can hear someone say,” get out,” which is most likely, freddie whispering to cook unless i’ve gone bonkers or something. 

also, i feel really sorry for mandy. emily didn’t need to fuck around with someone else’s feelings. i’m just glad naomi and emily found their way back to each other. also, all the awards to lily loveless for her speech.

and gosh. i used to think karen was a twat. (when she used her mum as an excuse to try and win that talent show) yet when she stole freddie’s shirt and started to lie in his bed, i got a feeling that she knew something was not right. after all, it showed her looking at his belongings and saying freddie’s name. i want her to come back (everyone else too) so i can see what happens to her. i guess her initial bitchy impression was just an act. deep down, she is actually caring. when i saw her trying to put the pieces together, i just wanted to grab her from my screen and tell her what actually happened. when she said, “he’s all i fucking got,” my heart went ka doom thunk kssshhh. now i’m wishing that karen (aka klariza clayton btw) got more screentime. sure she was being a bitch for using her mum. but in the end, she was a person who needed her brother, more than anything.

thomas is so full of life. he sees the good in people and tries to show them that too. and that’s the main reason i love him. also, it’s great that pandora and thomas are back (well it was implied but let’s just say they did)

i love the friendship between katie, pandora and effy. it was absolutely adorable when katie and pandora started to sing a song to effy to cheer her up. also, this season shows katie’s true side. my initial impressions of her being a bitch has disappeared. i think it was her infertility that made her snap and wake up. also, i want a friend like pandora. she’s not useless, at all!

also, i feel absolutely terrible for effy. i think i feel mostly terrible for effy and karen (especially effy though). effy already saw her brother get hit by a bus. now her only true love has gone (i hope not) and it is obvious she’s going to react very badly. she trusted john foster. all i think now is betrayal, a broken heart and a lot of pain. also, karen already lost her mother. i know deep down she loved freddie to bits. 

i hope jj and lara have a happy ending. i mean, after all, the man performed a song for her. even though, that scene was slightly cheesy, it was extremely sweet and lovely. no doubt about that.

cook is a fucking legend. is there anything he can’t do? honestly. all the awards (to everyone else also, mind you) also, there is this bit of me that likes him with karen (don’t hurt me) also when i was watching the scene where cook reads freddie’s notebook, i couldn’t help but smile at the fact that an intern probably had to write all of that out. cook is just out of this world. despite his reckless behaviour, he was  a part of the three musketeers. he loved all of them even though he may have been seen as a jackass to them. when he started breaking down in front of naomi’s house, everything was just kfjdgkjdrfjgbkljflkgjlkfgblkjglkv (yes because that is an emotion which has not been classified yet)

i just love how everyone is so connected with each other. they all love each other. especially the scene where they protect cook!

all of them are just so perfect. all the actors/ actresses did such an incredible job each. my feelings can only be expressed in difjgkjre,fgmvlkckgbjkfmvbmlfdm

why is kim kardashian’s bare ass on my newsfeed? i cannot comprehend.